rants and raves

Mixtape #10: Hope

2006-12-23T04:10:28Z

Side A

1. Foo Fighters - Next Year

2. Edguy - Forever

3. Johnny Cash - Further Up the Road

4.The Framed - The Way It Is

5. When I Come Around - Green Day

6. Kings of Nuthin' - Only Time

7. Plus 44 - Make You Smile

Side B

1. The Eyeliners - When Will I see You Again?

2. Tiger Army - Through the Darkness

3. Social Distortion - Angel's Wings

4. Rancid - The War's End

5. Saosin - It's So Simple

6. Pulley - Nothing To Lose

7. Pensive - I'm Still About You

could it be? am I updating??

2006-04-05T19:43:16Z

yes it is true.

Well life is getting a bit easier after being fucked by the bank, and having my car blow up (more like fall apart) on 3 separate occasions in the past 6 months, getting out of school because I owe them money and my grades sucked. I'm hopefull optimistic that the rest of 2006 will not suck as much.

I say this only because I have no idea when I'll update again becuase I seem to be going through random spurts of this.

On the plus side, the Holly Wood Homicide has been going VERY well, better than I expected it could be. We just released our first recordings to the public last friday. It is a split CD with pop-punk superheros from minneapolis, the one-and-only Red Phone Dispatch. It also marks the first release on Ben and my record label, Indie-cent records. We're still looking for more bands for our upcoming compilation CD, but thats not going to be finished for a while. check it out if you have not yet

www.myspace.com/thehollywoodhomicide

Spring is here which means we're only one step away from summer, and that is good. This summer hopes to be a good one with touring planned and the production of Hair and shows a plenty. cant wait

My life has been extraordinary, blessed and cursed and won...

2005-12-02T15:04:45Z

It sucks to really be failiing in many aspects of my life. I've just stopped caring about it. Apathy has rained on me and there is no way out of it.

Left Hand Black, Right Foot Green

2005-09-15T10:44:55Z

Here I am again. 5:30 AM, barely any sleep, work at 7 until noon, then class until 3:15. If anything this insomnia has helped me get homework done. Yes I actually did homework. Although reading Philosophy at 4:30 in the morning followed by some history is an adventure in itself. I have to turn in my notecard on Aristotle's Politics which I'm not sure if it is even coherant. But thats Philosophy. When you don't know confuse your audience and you'll be respected.

School has been pretty good. I like my classes, although they are pretty difficult, but a well needed chalenge. THe only thing that sucks is I made neither Chamber Choir, nor Jazz Band this year, which sucks. I thought I'd make one or the other. I think I need time to adjust to my new part (I moved from Tenor to Baritone) and my stagnant guitar playing (I haven't had time to practice much being as busy as I am.) Maybe this is what I need to relax. We'll see.

It sucks so much that I can never see Meeks. DAMN 170 MILES!!! Shes coming home this weekend (tenativly) which has been quite the ordeal. I can't wait to spend this weekend with her.

Well I think I'm gonna go do something productive as long as I can't sleep.

Top 10 albums

2005-09-07T18:49:02Z

I've decided that I'm going to make a list of the top ten albums in my collection and see if I get some response. I guess I'm just really that bored.

The Top 10 (in no particular order)
1. Green Day - Dookie
This album is probably their best (although Kerplunk is RIGHT behind it). For me I grew up with it and was my first introduction into punk of any sorts. All the songs flow so well together and are al so calssic. Theres not a bad song on there

2. Tom Waits - Rain Dogs
Tom Waits is one of the most innovative musicians I have ever heard in my life. On this Album the transition from the jazz piano of his earlier music to the stranger style focusing on marimbas and vibes starts to really show itself. Plus he just writes a good tune with his varied vocal stylings.

3. Avantasia - The Metal Opera Pt 1 & 2
This epic is so phenominal. It sounds like Iron Maiden meets Andrew Llyod Weber.

4. The Cure - Disintigration
Filled with sappy love songs and eerie chourus effects, this albums creates such a good atmospheric sound. The love-lorn lyrics mixed with Robert Smith's single note guitar lines makes the music blend together so wonderfully with a very dark, depressing mood.

5. Rancid - Life Won't Wait
A lot of people would disagree on this with me, because And Out Come the Wolves is so great. However, Life Won't Wait is such an eclectic mix of music, with the Dancehall songs, Rockabiliy, and straight up Punk rock.

6. Flogging Molly - Swagger
Nothing better to drown your days in a pint of guiness while listening to this album. It blends the folk sound and instrumants with the speed beats. I can't get enough of this one.

7. Nekromantix - Demons are a Girl's Best Friend
This is prime Psychobilly. It ranges from the fast picking guitar lines to laid back beats and the coffin bass...Oh man are those lines freaking amazing!

8. Johnny Cash - American III: Solitary Man
Probably his masterpiece of the American Series. good Originals and great covers.

9. Bad Religion - Process of Belief
Mixing 3-4 part harmonics with catchy chord prgressions and aggressive beats this is one of their finest works.

10.Billy Bragg - Reaching the Converted
Even though its a B-sides record, its shows such a great range of songs by the English Balladeer

Runner-ups
Against Me - Walking is Still Honest
Avanged Sevenfold - Walking the Fallen
The Misfits - Walk Among Us
Elvis Costello - This Years Model
Alakline Trio - Crimson

Owch

2005-08-31T21:11:05Z

MAn I'm an idiot. I decided to Go Skateboarding with Ben West around SCSU. I don't have my board because its been broken for 2 years and I"m too lazy to get it fixed. So we're running from the Snausages (aka Public Safety) and end up rolling down the hill behind Halenbeck hall. Neither of us realized how steep it was and were gaining speed intensely. well the Truck on my board were MUCH more loose than I'm used to and started wobbling. I ended up biting gravel pretty hard and now have some wicked wounds and soreness todisplay. I even called into work, because its so freaking sore and I won't be able to lift shite. But yeah I'm an idiot. So all day I've been sitting watching CNN and hurricane stuff. thats pretty crazy.I need to do SOMETHING today i I can move.

I'm Still Alive!

2005-08-31T02:16:26Z

So its been a long while since I've posted and I apologize. My last entry was a bit *ahem* morbid. I'm happy to note that life has decided to take a break from kicking my ass and now stability in pretty much every aspect of my life has emerged. HUZZAH!

Where to begin?

I'm offically going to be rejoining the ranks of the collegic student body this semester. I thought that I was taking a semester off to re-configure my life and direction, but alas, I realized I would be so freaking bored just WORKING, I mean who wants to just work? I want to do SOMETHING other than work, so school-ward bound am I.

New musical projects have emerged as of late. I'm now playing with a band calling ourselves the Holly Wood Homicide. Its a psychobilly band (think Stray Cats meets the Misfits) where I will be drumming. looks like one of our first shows is October 1st or the 30th....I don't remember which.

and No, Malujubazz is still around. In fact, we just won the Al's Music Garage Band Bash last saturday! We got a new computer and equipment to record, so I'm gonna try to do some more acoustic demos for the people who like that stuff.

Monique moved to Duluth for school. Shesbeen gone two days and I miss her a lot already. I think I'm going to visit her sundy though when Robby heads up. so thats not too bad. We talk on the phone a lot now, but it still sucks thta we can be together when we want.

Other than that I've just been busy with plays, work and music.

Well I am off to enjoy my evening before a 7 am shift tomorrow. SUCKS!!!

latas all

Worst week ever

2005-06-15T04:01:35Z

Worst week In my life

1. Amp gets stolen

2. Band fighting a lot

3. Girlfriend and I falling apart

4. Owe money for both a computer and amp on top of rent, cable, and electricity

5. losing student daily teaching with means less money

6. Uncle's truck hit a roadside bomb in Iraq and he may die.

God hates me

Best 2 days EVER

2005-04-18T07:02:56Z

The past two days have been so much fun that it warrents an entry in its honor. And being I haven't updated in a while...

Saturday:
It was a busy day filled with teaching in the morning and practice in the afternoon. Both went well but it was all in anticipation for the show that night with the Groovie Ghoulies, whom I have listened to since I was 13. They were playing at Cheap Thrills and Malujubazz was on the bill. HUZZAH! I was so excited. Practices with Jesse were great and he really picked up on the music fast. We get to the show and meet the Ghoulies. They were so nice. they came and looked at our herse and talked with us for a little while. Doorstep played and they were great as always. Then we got up and it was GREAT! one of the best shows we've played. THEN the Ghoulies. I was in the front the whole time rocking out and pulling old school dance moves. They Were SOOOOOOO great. After them was a band called Red Phone Dispatch. They also rocked. I started doing the "Thriller" dance during their set and they loved it (there were about 3-04 other people who joined in). I talked with both bands afterwards and it was such a good time.

Sunday:
I woke up at 6:30 and decided I wasn't going to work. So I called in and slept until noon. Went to help my dad and looked at the guitar I'm going to build (or finish building) for myself and then went home. It was then decided, through a call from Ben and Misty and the word from last night, that we were going to travel to the cities to sxee the Ghoulies play again. Ben, Misty Quint and I get lost in the cities looking for this house, but eventually find it. Right away we see Roach and Scampi from the Ghoulies and they remember us and say we were just in time. Kepi asks if there is a song we would like to hear them play. Ben says "Graveyard Girlfriend" and I asked for their cover of the "Time Warp" from the ROcky Horror Picture Show. THeir Set was great. During it they gave quite a few shoutouts to us. Like when they wanted people to clap they said "Show'em how its Done St. Cloud". So they played the Time Warp and Graveyard Girlfriend and then dedicated another song to us for traveling to see them. We again talked with them after the show and just hung out. They are becoming one of my favorite bands. Dilinger 4 was SUPPOSED to play, but ended up not. But we did also get to see the Modern Machines (friends from Milwakee). Now I have to finish a speech for class at 9 am tomorrow.

wish me luck

It was a good weekend!

o

2005-02-27T04:23:19Z

I'm typing this from the comfort of my room art my house. THATS RIGHT! I have a computer that WORKS!!!! Huzzah!

Not a lot has been going on. just trying to figure myself out and a few other things.

Wrote 2 songs w/ Malu tonight. It was sweet

Latas

johnnymalu @ 2005-02-19T12:18:00

2005-02-19T18:25:57Z

I think I found out why everything is the "worst case scenario" with me. I think it stems from my family...

johnnymalu @ 2005-02-19T11:12:00

2005-02-19T17:20:25Z

Starting to work things out. I guess I kinda deserve the things that have been happening. its time to fix that.

johnnymalu @ 2005-02-15T17:04:00

2005-02-15T23:12:54Z

It hurts to know people who you considered friends talk shit behind your back over something that is none of their business. They don't even fucking know me anymore.

Lecture

2005-02-15T15:56:16Z

I went to my English class today. Its funny how when something is going on in your life that examples mirror what you've been experiencing. It really made me think about my reasons and what has happened

PLus it doesn't help that every song on this CD reminds me of part of us. It literally has the good the bad and the ugly parts, but in a sense its very cathartic. Maybe somethings telling me this all is a mistake.

I dunno. I'm confused about all of this... It hurts but it almost feels like a necessary hurt to come to some revelation. Hopefully that can come soon, for both of us.

johnnymalu @ 2005-02-14T19:07:00

2005-02-15T03:08:09Z

I'm sorry I couldn't make today the day you wanted. Everything is just so confusing and I don't know what to do.

People just don't understand me

johnnymalu @ 2005-01-22T00:56:00

2005-01-22T07:38:17Z

I've been staying at my 'rents house the past few nights because they went out of town and my sister didn't want to stay here alone. Fine. Not a big deal. However today she REALLY pissed me off.

I invited a couple of friends over to watch a movie because of being snowed in. Well she gets home and starts freaking on me saying I should ask her because I don't live here anymore. Like this is no longer my home. I still live here and under circumstances I think it was alright to watch a movie at what I still consider home with my friends. She said I'm a "guest" here. I'm a guest in my home. fuck that. I still live here, and even though I do have my own place, the only reason I was staying was because she didn't want to be alone. Well I don't care anymore. If she's going to freak out on me because I'm at home when SHE asked me to stay and treat me as if I don't have a place here, well maybe I just shouldn't have even come.

"Save Me" - UnWritten Law

Had a bad day, don't talk to me,
gonna ride this out,
My little black heart, breaks apart,
with your big mouth.

And I'm sick of my sickness
Don't touch me, you'll get this.
I'm useless, lazy, perverted,
and you hate me.

You can't save me,
You can't change me,
Well I'm waiting for my wake up call,
And everything, everything's my fault.

Went to the doctor, and I asked her,
to make this stop.(whoa)
Got medication, a new addiction,
Fucken thanks a lot.

Had to relapse, I'm outta rehab,
It ruined everything.(whoa)
So point your finger, at the singer,
He's in the pharmacy.

You can't save me,
You can't change me,
Well I'm waiting for my wake up call ,
and everything's my fault.

You can't save me,
You can't blame me,
Well I'm waiting here to take a fall,
and everything, and everything's my fault.

And I'm a death threat haven't slept yet,
Baby wide awake at dawn.
Helmet bad boy, tell the tabloids,
everything's my fault.

Whoa whoa yeah, write it write it,
Whoa whoa yeah, write it write it,
Whoa Whoa everything's my fault,
everything's my fault.

I went to heaven, couldn't get it,
For what I had done.
I said forsake me, you said you're crazy
you were too much fun.

You can't save me,
You can't change me,
Well I'm waiting for my wake up call ,
and everything's my fault.

You can't save me,
You can't blame me,
Well I'm waiting here to take a fall,
and everything, everything's my fault.

You can't save me,
You can't change me,
You can't save me,
You can't change me,
You can't save me,
You can't change me,(everything's my fault)
You can't save me,
You can't change me,

Everything's my fault.

Failure is my middle name

2005-01-11T07:11:32Z

Well shit has REALLY hit the fan. I lost all my financial aid for school because of my grades. Although one MAY change, I don't know if they will reinstate it. So the 'rents are pretty pissed at me. Then I was hurt by a comment my sister made. Off hand she said "You want to know what grades I got to cheer you up?". That really fucking hurt. Shes always been the "good student" of the two of us, getting nothing lower than a B ever. I never was good with grades because I always felt there was more to life, but no matter which way I go, no matter what path I take, I'm going to be miserable. I can barely afford to keep myself alive right now, and plus with my rent going up, school starting, the play going into the last three weeks, Corduroy Star losing our new practice space (Fuck you Sauk Rapids Police), Malujubazz having a bunch of shows, and work. Ugh.

Plus I can't help Meeks right now, because I would be of no good to her in this state of mind. I suck.

Fall to Pieces (new song)

2005-01-03T00:28:36Z

A smile on my face and pockets full of napalm
I'm the Son of failure and a genereatio let down
Crash and Burn this city to the ground
and we'll end it all as the lights go out
Be the first in line to see my meltdown

Mother, Father can you hear my
cry for help I fall to pieces
Picking up where I left off, a broken child
Without a reason
Sometimes I can't explain the things I do
They're part of you too
And I know I can't change for you

A nuclear summer with pretension neverending
you could never make out the messages we're sending
Hide your face as you fall in place
never questioning yourself or the ones who plan your fate
You've got a lot to learn before you understand me
-------------------------------------------------------
This is all I have so far... more later probably

johnnymalu @ 2004-12-30T23:07:00

2004-12-31T05:32:33Z

I made a new Icon...yes its a one of myself, but eh. I liked the picture. Plus people will know when I leave comments. Ok maybe not, but eh.

Mitch Hedberg has to be the funniest comedian ever. I bought his CD the other day and have listened to almost non-stop. So good. Plus it came with DVD. Score'd!

Cleaning rooms sucks. I"ve attempted the task of picking all the shit up off my floor and making everything a bit more organized. That's a task in itself. Its funny, when I moved I didn't have as much shit as I do now. Damn things!

DAMN THEM!

I think damn is going to be my word of the day.

DAMN

Grease rehearsal was cancelled tonight. Our Choreographer has Pnemonia and the Director is migrating back to Canada for a bit. So what did I do with all this free time...Thats right! Picked up a shift to work! Huzzah... no not at all. but the 29 hours will be a nice Bonus for the week next week. Rehearsals are going well though. I'm really getting to like the people in the cast. We've all been hanging out after practice, going to Taco Johns and Chipolte and random movies. Cast unity is good. I always feel old. Of all of us who go out afterwards, David and I are the only ones 20 or older.

Work this week is going to suck though. I work at 7 AM everyday until Wednsday. Sucktastic.

I'll have a Samuel Jackson...

*Samuel appears*

"GOOD MOTHERFUCKING CHOICE MOTHERFUCKER! IT'LL GET YOU DRUNK!"

On thats note

johnnymalu @ 2004-12-28T23:44:00

2004-12-29T05:59:49Z

Life could be a lot better right now. Just siting at my 'rents house. Seems like I don't spend a lot of time at the house anymore. Just lately I haven't wanted to be there. So I stay at Meek's or here. I kinda miss it here.

I've been so busy with Grease lately. The Friggin dances are hard! especially since I really dont know what I'm doing. Ah well.

Lots of Pelvic thrusts

THe band hasn't practiced since our last show. its weird not seeing those boys. Its like we aren't very accomplished right now, but we all need breaks. Finals kicked my ass and I'm pretty sure Tyler's too.

I should clean my room tomorrow. I just gotta get rid of the cabinets. Drew said he'd help me move them, but I doubt it will happen.

It comes to an end now

2004-12-27T23:21:52Z

In light of last night and what happened, I'm cutting back and not doing such stupid things. It is time to revert to my old self where I didn't need any of that. I will no longer try things and the things I;ve done regularly shall be significantly cut back. It is time to turn over a new leaf.

"I don’t get many things right the first time
In fact, I am told that a lot
Now I know all the wrong turns, the stumbles and falls
Brought me here

And where was I before the day
That I first saw your lovely face?
Now I see it everyday
And I know

That I am
I am
I am
The luckiest"
-Ben Folds "Luckiest"

I'm sorry that I hurt you. That was the last thing I wanted to do. I've made mistakes and I will suffer for them. I only ask that you support me even though I've done so much wrong, I love you

johnnymalu @ 2004-12-27T11:40:00

2004-12-27T17:42:50Z

Well last Night sucked. I went out with Morgan and JEremy for a bit. I ate a bunch of cheese popcorn and at the Great Dragon Chinese resturant. Well by the end of the night I was throwing up all over. I'm never doing that again. Ugh.

johnnymalu @ 2004-12-14T16:12:00

2004-12-14T22:15:06Z

Things have been crazy. The CD came out Friday and we've sold half of them already which is pretty good. I hope people like them. Today was my last day of class. Huzzah. But I still gotta write some papers to pass. I really stopped caring and tahts not good. but I see it this way: Next semseter I'll know what NOT to do.

I made it into Grease. I'm playing Kenickie which is pretty sweet. I go from one show being a nerd to a badass. Sweet!

It sucks being so busy ALL the time. I want to chill with people, but alas I cannot.

Getting older

2004-12-06T07:37:12Z

Yeah. SO I'm 20 now. I feel old. I never thought it would be a big deal, but for some reason it is.

I'm probably going to fail college this semester. I just really don't care anymore. The only class I ever feel like going to is choir and history occasionally. If I didn't have homework, I would pass EVERY single one of my classes, but alas I am cursed.

I've decided I'm going to try to teach guitar lessons at Al's to make some more money. I can take beginners to probably intermediate. Its like $15 per half hour. All I have to pay is the studio fee, which is relativly inexpensive. I could be making serious bank, but I don't know how GOOD of a teacher I am. If I had to I'd be ok. Still its a good Idea. Or I should whore myself out to 100 fat chicks for $100...or 10 REALLY fat chicks for $1000...

Get the Family Guy Reference??

Did you?

I should probably do homework soon...

again, but funnier

2004-11-17T16:55:12Z

How long would you last in a zombie movie by zombi357

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Weapon of choice

Friend who turned that you had to kill

sad_fish

Chance you will survive: 92%

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